It began with a plane crash.
The greatest television program of all time.
One year after, and nothing has even come close to replacing it.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Grandpa
I don't know what to say.
I have seen people die countless times in fictional media, and so I know what its supposed to be like when someone dies. But I didn't expect this.
I feel empty. I feel like someone who I talked to just two weeks ago should still be here. They were supposed to come and visit us in June. I don't think thats happening anymore.
At first I just sat there. I didn't know what to do: everything just stopped. I wasn't crying so I thought I should be and I played sad music to try and make it happen; it didn't.
So I walked outside my apartment barefoot and went to the top floor of the garage because I didn't know what else to do. I sat there on the top of the garage and tried to feel something.
Some people called me afterwards: friends and family alike. That made me cry. Maybe it was talking.
I was originally planning on playing video games that night, but that didn't make sense anymore. So I decided to do the one thing I know that grandpa was proud of me for:
Music
I played piano for a while and I think that helped. By that point it was 8pm. I didn't know what else to do. So I went to bed.
Throughout the week I was occupied with my internship, and I think that helped me not have to think about it.
If I remember one thing about Grandpa, it was his laugh and his smile. He was a fan of Lost and thats something else we had in common. If there's one thing I have that I consider precious from him its the piece of music that he sent me from his friend who played in the orchestra that played the music for Lost. Thats framed.
Its been two weeks.
I talked to him 4 days before it happened, and if I hadn't I wouldn't have spoken to him otherwise except from back at Christmas.
I told him about the internship I'd just gotten at HostDime and the foundation exam I just took (and failed XP).
He seemed happy.
I have seen people die countless times in fictional media, and so I know what its supposed to be like when someone dies. But I didn't expect this.
I feel empty. I feel like someone who I talked to just two weeks ago should still be here. They were supposed to come and visit us in June. I don't think thats happening anymore.
At first I just sat there. I didn't know what to do: everything just stopped. I wasn't crying so I thought I should be and I played sad music to try and make it happen; it didn't.
So I walked outside my apartment barefoot and went to the top floor of the garage because I didn't know what else to do. I sat there on the top of the garage and tried to feel something.
Some people called me afterwards: friends and family alike. That made me cry. Maybe it was talking.
I was originally planning on playing video games that night, but that didn't make sense anymore. So I decided to do the one thing I know that grandpa was proud of me for:
Music
I played piano for a while and I think that helped. By that point it was 8pm. I didn't know what else to do. So I went to bed.
Throughout the week I was occupied with my internship, and I think that helped me not have to think about it.
If I remember one thing about Grandpa, it was his laugh and his smile. He was a fan of Lost and thats something else we had in common. If there's one thing I have that I consider precious from him its the piece of music that he sent me from his friend who played in the orchestra that played the music for Lost. Thats framed.
Its been two weeks.
I talked to him 4 days before it happened, and if I hadn't I wouldn't have spoken to him otherwise except from back at Christmas.
I told him about the internship I'd just gotten at HostDime and the foundation exam I just took (and failed XP).
He seemed happy.
Monday, April 18, 2011
The Beginning of the End
4/18/2011
6:30 AM EST
Location: Apartment
Music: Fullmetal Alchemist Soundtracks
Well I've finally gotten around to doing this.
I've considered starting a blog for a while, but I've never actually done it until now (upon random suggestion from a complete stranger nonetheless).
I suppose I've always had a desire to tell people about what is going on in my life, whether its my current significant other, my mother, or whoever cares to listen to me at the moment.
So, here I am.
===================================================================
Procrastination's a bitch.
I'm currently studying for a Calculus III test that I have in oh...say 8 hours from now, and I'm just going to pump myself with energy and pretty much study non-stop for the next 7 hours or so.
I've spent way too much time on this Portal 2 ARG over the weekend, and now I'm paying for it, but what can you do? I can't fail this test, as I AM NOT going to take Calculus III over again, as I had to with Calculus I & II, and so I will ENSURE at least a C, so that I can pass this course.
===================================================================
Meanwhile I haven't even touched work on my other courses in a while, although I have to go to a stupid talk and write a short essay on it for Speech, because class is cancelled for one day. Really, they can't just cancel class? Ridiculous.
I'm doing fine in Programming though, so it shouldn't matter for that. Discrete is another story altogether, but I'll deal with that when the time comes.
I'm skipping two classes today, as of now. Programming I can always learn later, and in Speech we're just watching Speeches.
NOT WORTHY OF MY TIME, especially with this test in the next 8 hours.
Who knows, I might go to programming later.
===================================================================
I really need to start working on C++ again, I need to prepare for the project Jason is giving me (PONG).
===================================================================
Probably going to pass out after the Calc. test and wake up in time for the Portal 2 release. I'll probably play for 3-4 hours, and then go back to sleep so I can be completely ready for my interview @ HostDime coming up.
Preparation is essential for matters such as these.
===================================================================
I'll see you in another life Brotha,
END OF LINE
Time: 6:42 AM
Music: Still Fullmetal
6:30 AM EST
Location: Apartment
Music: Fullmetal Alchemist Soundtracks
Well I've finally gotten around to doing this.
I've considered starting a blog for a while, but I've never actually done it until now (upon random suggestion from a complete stranger nonetheless).
I suppose I've always had a desire to tell people about what is going on in my life, whether its my current significant other, my mother, or whoever cares to listen to me at the moment.
So, here I am.
===================================================================
Procrastination's a bitch.
I'm currently studying for a Calculus III test that I have in oh...say 8 hours from now, and I'm just going to pump myself with energy and pretty much study non-stop for the next 7 hours or so.
I've spent way too much time on this Portal 2 ARG over the weekend, and now I'm paying for it, but what can you do? I can't fail this test, as I AM NOT going to take Calculus III over again, as I had to with Calculus I & II, and so I will ENSURE at least a C, so that I can pass this course.
===================================================================
Meanwhile I haven't even touched work on my other courses in a while, although I have to go to a stupid talk and write a short essay on it for Speech, because class is cancelled for one day. Really, they can't just cancel class? Ridiculous.
I'm doing fine in Programming though, so it shouldn't matter for that. Discrete is another story altogether, but I'll deal with that when the time comes.
I'm skipping two classes today, as of now. Programming I can always learn later, and in Speech we're just watching Speeches.
NOT WORTHY OF MY TIME, especially with this test in the next 8 hours.
Who knows, I might go to programming later.
===================================================================
I really need to start working on C++ again, I need to prepare for the project Jason is giving me (PONG).
===================================================================
Probably going to pass out after the Calc. test and wake up in time for the Portal 2 release. I'll probably play for 3-4 hours, and then go back to sleep so I can be completely ready for my interview @ HostDime coming up.
Preparation is essential for matters such as these.
===================================================================
I'll see you in another life Brotha,
END OF LINE
Time: 6:42 AM
Music: Still Fullmetal
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